Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Chick flicks

Tonight seems like it's going to be a night of movies. Chick flicks to be more exact.

Right now I found myself half watching Pride & Prejudice (Keira Knightly version) on E! while I was flipping through some tumblrs. Personally, I think Mr. Darcy is a jerk. Give me Wuthering Heights or Jane Eyre any day. (In their book versions though.)

And then hopefully I can motivate myself into getting in the shower today since I haven't taken one today. I know, I'm gross!

And then while I'm working on my masquerade mask, my texture project, and even while I'm getting a head start on my Woody Allen (I'll discuss that later), I'll be watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. I don't care what anyone says. It's probably my favorite movie ever.

Although it's probably going to make me kind of lonely. And it's going to make me want to do some cuddling. I haven't cuddled in a little while now since Derick's been busy...

Then just to lighten the mood, I'll throw in some Mallrats. I could really go for Chasing Amy right now, but I don't own it, and Mallrats is the closest to another Kevin Smith chick flick.

With a couple of art projects to get done, a box of curry next to me, and a good few movies, it sounds like it's going to be a pretty cozy night :)

Saturday, April 17, 2010

My heart's on Fire

Before you read the rest of this entry, please press play on the video featured below. This song has the same feeling that today did, and I think that it would set the mood for this entry.

That, and it's just a really good song :)

1. I woke up in soooo much pain. My horrible throat pains. Seriously my throat was raw, and it was actually pretty gross because I woke up in a puddle of my own drool. I mean, it's been happening a lot since I've been sick, since it really hurts to swallow, but this was just ridiculous. I am giving my pillows a very thorough washing tonight

2. Krystal called me, she hurt her knee at the clubs last night and was sitting in the waiting room at the hospital. She wanted me to work her shift at Bella Napoli, but I declined. I mean, seeing as how I quit that job and all. And it's funny, because for a split second, I was about to break out my apron and run over there until I caught myself. I guess I do really miss that place

3. We have to make a documentary for my English class on Payday Loans. The problem is, it's a group project and I hate working in groups so much. So I went to Kinley's to meet my group, just hating the world because my bus was late, because I actually have to go and meet a group, because I'm sick and didn't feel well, because I wanted to curl up in bed and watch season 3 of It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia instead.

4. I meet my group and start hating the world even more, because the guy in the group is a "leader" type, and I'm the "if you want something done right, you have to do it yourself" type, and neither one of us was the letting the other talk. And Payday Loan offices apparently don't give interviews so this documentary seems to be going down the drain

5. So I'm hating the world right? With my sore throat, and an unfinished documentary, and I decided to get some soup at Kinley's because god knows there's nothing to eat at my house. And one of the girls from my group sits down with me because she's waiting for her ride, and starts talking to me. Like actually talking to me. I mean, no lies, she's the socially awkward type, and she told me that there's a reason for that. It's actually a condition, and it actually made me happy to hear that. Not because she has a condition, but because a person that I don't know very well just decided to tell me that. She also told me that it caused her family a lot of stress, and as if on cue, her father walks in right then, the most cheerful looking guy in the world. It made me so happy.

6. So she leaves and I'm chewing on my ramen by myself, and a girl sitting on the couch across from me giggles and looks up at me. I have no idea why she giggled but I noticed that she was barefoot, and I noticed that she was wearing a flowy white skirt, and that she was reading Khalil Gibran. And she goes up to the counter and orders something to drink, and the guy there asks her if she has ever read a certain Syrian author. And I told the girl through my thoughts "I used to be you." Wearing flowy skirts that were as free as I wanted to be, and reading books that would set me as free as my skirt, and going everywhere barefoot without caring about "germs", and striking up conversations about books with random people in restaurants. And I really miss being that girl

7. I left Kinley's and waited at my bus stop, with the bus running late again, but this time I didn't mind as much. The sun was warm, and I noticed a homeless guy sitting at one of the benches. I know it wasn't always safe, but I used to talk to a lot of homeless people at bus stops, and I stopped awhile ago because of the safety issue. But I had to check the schedule that was posted next to him, and I went and we chatted. He was a veteran, like many other homeless men are, sadly. And he told me about his life. Awful things about how he saw his brother dying right next to him in combat, but he told me other things too. Like how his youngest daughter is twenty one and that she's beautiful and that all the guys are chasing after her. It made him happy

8. A guy came over, one of the veterans' friends apparently. He kept looking over at me while he was talking to the man, and finally acknowledged me. He asked me "So, do you go to school here?" I said yes. He asked "So what are you into? Like, what do you do?" Like a robot I asked "What, like my major?" he said "Uhm, sure? I guess." It was the split second that made me realize, I have nothing going for me anymore. No passions, no ambition, no direction. Anything. And this may just sound like a pity rant, but it really upsets me. I used to know what I loved and I loved doing it. I don't anymore... I'm too young for a midlife crisis.

9. Needing some cheering up, I went over to Bella Napoli to say hi to the folks. I miss everyone so much. They were my family, totally and completely, and it makes me sad that I had to leave them. But I mean, depth doesn't frequent Bella Napoli. Only the well kept and kind of snobby do, and it was killing my faith in humanity a little, being treated like I was a servant and not a server.

10. So now I'm home, mulling over my life, knowing that this post is going to come out waaay too long. But it's okay. This makes up for all of the non-posting that I have done. Maybe I'll finish my masquerade mask, start on my texture project, maybe even do my final project if I'm feeling frisky. And then I can mull some things over some more.

11. The only thing that could have made this day so much better, was if I were able to see my love :) Maybe tomorrow? Wish me luck :)

Friday, April 16, 2010

Soup :(

I feel soooo gross
Silly sinus infections
Although that Deadly Nightshade stuff is working wonders.
And even though its about 80 degrees outside, I still feel like eating soup. That's when you know you're sick :(
Maybe I'll even take a picture of it if I get some.
I hope I do
Wish me luck on my quest for soup!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


I haven't really been updating these past couple of days. Mainly because I've been dizzy and sluggish. It's odd. Lots of lightheadedness no matter what I do. Oh well, I'm sure it will pass.

Also, I've been battling off a sinus infection. And I actually think that I may be winning the fight with the help of these guys: Featured left: Echinacea, Oregano oil (sooo hardcore) and Vitamin C.
I've actually been feeling pretty weathered lately, and it's starting to get to me because usually around spring time, I'm feeling pretty chipper. Hopefully this all just goes away really soon.

School wise, things are alrighty since the last time I wrote. My art history II class is finally starting to interest me now that we're out of the Greeks and Romans. Not that they're not interesting, it's just that their art is exactly the same.

Can you tell the difference???

And to be honest, I've never cared much for either civilization anyway. Now, we're going into Late Antiquity and I never thought that I would say this but I've never been more excited to study me some Christian Art. I'm also getting really stressed over a documentary that I have to film for English. I say "I" even though it's a group project because I seem to be the only person in the group who really cares if it gets done or not. Ugh. This is why I hate working in groups...

And finally my life in general is kind of lacking I suppose. I have major cabin fever and I've never been more anxious to go out on adventures. But I have no one to go out on those adventures with. Especially now that the mister is expecting the return of his damn xbox. I'll never see him again :(

Monday, April 12, 2010

Kerouac Alley

Regarding yesterday's post, I never did go to ballet.. I was too lazy, and instead went to my love's house and cuddled. It was a pretty uneventful day actually, but time seemed to fly by so fast.

That's what I hate about the year turning into summer. If you're like me and you try to judge the time based on where the sun is in the sky, you understand how warmer weather messes everything up. You look at the sky, the sun is barely going down, you think "oh nice! I have all the time in the world." And then BAM! It's nine o' clock, and if you're also like me, the will to work on anything also ends at nine o' clock.

Speaking of work: I miss it. I'm starting to realize, I'm not a beatnik, and I could never possibly be a beatnik. I admire the philosophy though. Being perfectly content with not having anything really, but still being perfectly happy about it. The fact that I can't be like that anymore scares me so badly. I need the security of a job, and I need to know that I'm providing for myself, and for my future and for anyone else who needs the money that my job provides. Also, it's killing me to just be doing nothing. ALL DAY

If anything, this whole going without a job nonsense has just made me feel stressed and guilty. It feels like I've taken several steps back instead of forward. And it's so frustrating.
But we'll see, hopefully things will look up, and I'll be back in the job market in no time.

P.S. Anyone know of any server openings anywhere???

Sunday, April 11, 2010


Hopes to get some of this done today:

Image via

Maybe not as hardcore as Vaganova, but I definitely miss dancing. And I'm definitely not getting into shape by laying around eating lime Lime Lay's and Ben&Jerry's all day.

So hopefully they open the studios in Fox Fine Arts on Sundays, and I can go and get some stretching going on.

Then who knows? Today doesn't seem like much of an adventure sort of day though. If anything, it seems like a good day for a snuggle. But we'll see how that goes.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Spring Formal

I have decided that from now on, I'm going to write a post for every day until my birthday (may 6) oooorrr.... until I feel that Spring has ended in my eyes. I just feel strange because usually, Spring is my favorite time of year. It's always refreshing and always brings about some kind of positive change in my life. But this year, something feels broken, and none of that good stuff is going for me. So I'll write a blog post for each day, so I can read over them, and see what Spring has brought me this year.

I'll back track a bit. Yesterday was a bit odd. Full of tension and a bit of anger, then nothing but love, then tension and anger all over again.
I guess you could say I woke up on the wrong side of the bed yesterday morning. I woke up cranky and without feeling for anyone's emotions but my own. But towards the middle of the day, things lightened up. I went out with the mister, we went to hobby lobby, the mall, and then I dragged him with me to the wetlands.
I LOVE the wetlands. They're representative of everything that is Spring to me. Even though we missed the ducks :( The hike was nice and made me realize how much I miss exercising. I miss getting my body moving like bodies were meant to do.
The view at the end was beautiful though. Being in nature around something so pretty with someone that you love so much is probably
one of the best feelings in the world. (Picture included!)

My night ended up fizzling after that, but today, even though it wasn't fantastic or anything, made up for it. There's nothing more curative in the world than an good shower. Especially one with those awesome Dead Sea products. Now I'm snuggling up in my bed with some lime Lay's and Keeping up with the Kardashians marathon. Life should be good for tonight :)

Featured left: my dinner

Monday, April 5, 2010


Yesterday was a pretty lovely day. Probably one of the best Easter's that I've ever had. Probably due to the fact that I wasn't really celebrating Easter.

- I woke up, and tried eating some nasty concoction that I thought would taste really good. It was potatoes, beans, some salsa, and a fried egg on top. Usually when my ex-boss's parents made it for me it was really delicious. And it did taste good, for like the first three bites, and then I got this nasty feeling and had to throw it out :( I felt so bad.

- Then I got a chance to try those beauty products that I was scammed into buying and I think those products are the best rip off that I have ever paid for in my life. I have yet to see the true effects of the facial cleanser, although it did make my face all shiny. But the body scrub was wonderful. I used it before I shaved and it made me soooo smooth for the rest of the day. I definitely recommend it to anyone who likes being smooth!

-I then got dressed in my new favorite dress with those earrings that I destroyed and went with my mother to the store. It was packed

-I then went to my wonderful boyfriends house who is thankfully feeling loads better. We hung around with his family, cuddled, and watched several hours of Life on the Discovery channel. It's a beautiful show. We also indulged in Cash Cab and the hand slap game.

Unfortunately, I lent my camera to the mister so that he could take some pictures for me, so yesterday can't be documented until later :/

But today I will just use my phone to take pictures of my color gradient, my collage, and hopefully lots of lime lays.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Dear Gustav,

Someday I hope to create Art Nouveau:

Gustav Klimt

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Mini Adventures part 2

I've realized that I don't give my blogspot as much attention as my
tumblr, so here is an image dense post to make up for lost time:

I've been having a lot of solo mini adventures lately. Today I went to the mall
I ate lunch at the Greenery:
I ate potato soup
(featured left)

And I ate what's called a Garden Pita (featured right) Not too bad actually. It's like a veggie pattie inside a pita that stuffed with bean sprouts. And dressed with a sort of Americanized tzatziki sauce. Not bad at all. It was tasty as well as filling.

I also bought a set of beauty products that I really didn't mean to buy. I usually try to avoid the Dead Sea kiosk. But the line that got me today was when Salesman said "This will really help with your nose." I happen to have a zit
on my nose that I'm a bit sensitive about, and that was a great sales pitch. Featured left: Onsen Facial
Peel & Obey Your Body kiwi body scrub. (he threw that in for free!)

I also bought a pair of earrings to go with a new dress (not featured). They were hardcore and made my ears hurt. So I stripped them. Here are the earrings after I ripped them apart pl
aced next to all of the left over metal:

And here is my ear wearing one of those earrings: